Just thought this was funny...my little gymnast.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
All There...
I read a really cool devotion yesterday. Although, it may have just been picked out for me, and no one else sees the value in it. It was discussing how we can not live in the past, for we can not change it. And we can not live for the future, for only God knows what that holds and only He has power over it.
So, what are we to do then? We are to live in the present!!! We are to do EXACTLY what God wants us to do TODAY! If we are looking to the left, to the right, to the back, or to the far of distance...we will stumble. We will miss where the path turns...we will go astray. We will miss that bump in the road, and look back to think, "Man, why am I on the ground getting stomped?"
So to bring all these thoughts together...I end with this phrase from the martyred missionairy Jim Elliot..."Where ever you are --- be all there."
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Welcome Baby Nathan
Yesterday, our "No name Baptist Church" welcomed Nathan Hayman! After much waiting he arrived around 8:30 am on Tuesday, September 18th. Much to our suprise he wieghed in at 9lbs and 4 1/2 ozs!!!! And 21 3/4 in long. BIG BOY!!!!!!!! Here are the pictures as promised...
Friday, September 14, 2007
Some Days are Wierd!
Well stink.
Here I am...going through life...enjoying my joy...serving my God...finding my good deals ;) ... and what steps in my path???
ME!
For some reason...I stepped into the path of the wishing and wanting. And missing. I don't normally feel this way. I can generally go months without feeling this way. But today, I feel this way. Today, I am sad that I have lost 10 babies. I know all the right answers. But I am just kinda sad. I should have a newborn. I should be feeding it right now and snuggling with it. I should be sleeping right now, because in 2 hours I would be awakened to feed again. And...instead...I am selling all my baby stuff...and the crib is in the basement.
I understand that right now is actually not just the best time for a baby. I understand that I have been blessed with WONDERFUL children...and I have so many dear friends still trying for theirs. I understand all of this. But, it does not take away the thoughts of my 10 tiny ones being in heaven without their mother and father. It doesn't take away the thoughts of wondering who they would have been...or what they would have looked like. Those thoughts are still there...And today, for some reason, they are very real.
So, I suppose this is the time to allow God to hold me once again. I know that this is the time that He wants me to praise Him for that which I do have. And to grieve that which has been lost from this earth. I know that God grieves with me. I know that it is not His perfect plan that any should die. He did not create us this way. He created us perfect. He has to grieve that because of human nature (sin nature) our bodies have deteriorated to the point that we loose our own unborn children. He has to mourn with us.
So, I take comfort in this. I take comfort in the fact that My God feels my pain. He loves me in spite of my sin. He wants to comfort me in my trials...and that tomorrow is a new day. A day in which maybe I wont step down that path that leads me to sad thoughts about my babies in heaven...but joyous ones. After all...my babies are full of God's glory and are singing His praises...gotta smile about that!
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Here I am...going through life...enjoying my joy...serving my God...finding my good deals ;) ... and what steps in my path???
ME!
For some reason...I stepped into the path of the wishing and wanting. And missing. I don't normally feel this way. I can generally go months without feeling this way. But today, I feel this way. Today, I am sad that I have lost 10 babies. I know all the right answers. But I am just kinda sad. I should have a newborn. I should be feeding it right now and snuggling with it. I should be sleeping right now, because in 2 hours I would be awakened to feed again. And...instead...I am selling all my baby stuff...and the crib is in the basement.
I understand that right now is actually not just the best time for a baby. I understand that I have been blessed with WONDERFUL children...and I have so many dear friends still trying for theirs. I understand all of this. But, it does not take away the thoughts of my 10 tiny ones being in heaven without their mother and father. It doesn't take away the thoughts of wondering who they would have been...or what they would have looked like. Those thoughts are still there...And today, for some reason, they are very real.
So, I suppose this is the time to allow God to hold me once again. I know that this is the time that He wants me to praise Him for that which I do have. And to grieve that which has been lost from this earth. I know that God grieves with me. I know that it is not His perfect plan that any should die. He did not create us this way. He created us perfect. He has to grieve that because of human nature (sin nature) our bodies have deteriorated to the point that we loose our own unborn children. He has to mourn with us.
So, I take comfort in this. I take comfort in the fact that My God feels my pain. He loves me in spite of my sin. He wants to comfort me in my trials...and that tomorrow is a new day. A day in which maybe I wont step down that path that leads me to sad thoughts about my babies in heaven...but joyous ones. After all...my babies are full of God's glory and are singing His praises...gotta smile about that!
Friday, September 7, 2007
My peanut butter ran out...
LOL...I think I need to go to bed. My peanut butter has ran out. Feeling rather unsticky. Or at least I feel as though I would be like Glue...rather bland tasting. Can't wait for God to step in and show us where He wants us!!! And what He wants us to do. Praying and Pleading with Him tonight...and trying to get some Peanut Butter back...
That makes me think of the the Chili's song...I want my butter back butter back butter back...I want my butter back butter back butter back. AANNNIIIIEEEEE'SSSSS Peanut buuuuuutteeerr. LOL. Ok...i really do need to go to bed. Night...
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That makes me think of the the Chili's song...I want my butter back butter back butter back...I want my butter back butter back butter back. AANNNIIIIEEEEE'SSSSS Peanut buuuuuutteeerr. LOL. Ok...i really do need to go to bed. Night...
I will give Joy in the God of my Salvation!
Habakkuk 3:18
Ok...That is a wierd place to read your morning devotions, but I just really wanted to read something different! So, I read in Hab. I read the following, "Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall the fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the feilds shall yeild on meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls; Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will give joy in the God of my salvation." Hab 3:17-18
I have been very sad lately over the fact that our church is different. Our thoughts right now are mainly focused on preparing each family to go out and minister better. And while this is exciting, it is hard to not see a lot of number growth. And it is hard to watch your friends move away, even if it is a GOOD thing that they are moving to do. It is hard to look at empty stalls and it is hard to see our flock be cut off...Even if it is a good thing. BUT...I must go on to verse 18. YET I WILL REJOICE! I WILL GIVE JOY~ As I looked down on the notes that I had written for this passage about 10 years ago, I smiled...I had taken notes on a message that one of my friends from High school had preached, his name was Jason Wampler. Here is the main thing that stuck out that he said..."Joy is like a Peanut Butter sandwich...once you start spreading it around, it sticks to everything!" I am going to be off to do some sticking...:)
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Ok...That is a wierd place to read your morning devotions, but I just really wanted to read something different! So, I read in Hab. I read the following, "Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall the fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the feilds shall yeild on meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls; Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will give joy in the God of my salvation." Hab 3:17-18
I have been very sad lately over the fact that our church is different. Our thoughts right now are mainly focused on preparing each family to go out and minister better. And while this is exciting, it is hard to not see a lot of number growth. And it is hard to watch your friends move away, even if it is a GOOD thing that they are moving to do. It is hard to look at empty stalls and it is hard to see our flock be cut off...Even if it is a good thing. BUT...I must go on to verse 18. YET I WILL REJOICE! I WILL GIVE JOY~ As I looked down on the notes that I had written for this passage about 10 years ago, I smiled...I had taken notes on a message that one of my friends from High school had preached, his name was Jason Wampler. Here is the main thing that stuck out that he said..."Joy is like a Peanut Butter sandwich...once you start spreading it around, it sticks to everything!" I am going to be off to do some sticking...:)
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Gazelling it....
Is this what it feels like when you are doing what you are supposed to? No real anxious feelings. Nothing that is super exciting or frustrating...just life. I have my checklist of everything to do today. Got 2 of them checked off already. 6 things left to do before I go to bed. What? Really?? That is it??? lol. Guess so. Just added another $2.00 to my savings account. Not a huge amount, but it felt good. Abbie is crying because she doesnt understand why we put the $2.00 in an envelope instead of spending it. Looks like she will learn soon enough huh??? Exciting! I am intense on getting this all done. I am intense on doing RIGHT...I am a GAZELLE....
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